blackcrimson

So it's been 3 years since I last wrote anything here on this page. You would think I would've outgrown DA, but I always wander back here in hopes of motivating myself to pick up a pencil again. I'm sure others can feel my pain when I write this, but it is hard to find any desire to grow and develop in a hobby when life throws so many curveballs at you. Just trying alone to pick yourself up from being knocked down time and time again is exhausting. Loss of friendships and family, marriage and divorce before the age of 25, finally being diagnosed with RA after years of wondering! How is it that you can find any interest in anything anymore? P

I need motivation on some things... 1) Pushups. 2) Wedding Plans. 3) Christmas Shopping. 4) ABS! Why the hell aren't you coming in!?!?! 5) Considering taking a mechanics course, and why? To have the knowledge to fix my damn vehicle and carry that knowledge on forever! No one would fuck with a person with those skills >:)

So thanks to some severe muscle scarring surrounding my hip joint, a wrench has been thrown into my career plans. Apparently I can't continue with my rigorous workout schedule for 6 fucking months! My words to my doctor? "It's bikini season bitch! What am I supposed to do in the meantime?" A bit baffled and a bit insulted (I mean I was half-joking), he told me gentle stretches and that's it! Grrrrrrr...... Meanwhile, I am to start learning how to play bass next saturday, woot! I am kind of nervous though. Any kind of music skills I might have lie in headbanging >:D Also, I have a Blade of the Immortal picture that is ALMOST done. Yay for p